Oh crap, it’s a fire…6 years ago today

A lot of things go through my mind when I think back to Thursday November 13, 2008.  Excitement, annoyance, fear, disbelief, relief and thankfulness.  I woke up excited, Barry and I were going to San Francisco the next day, we had tickets to see the Giants on Saturday, it was my first NFL game and they were Suite tickets so I didn’t have to freeze.  We planned to stay for the weekend.  We had a child sitter AND a dog sitter.  I had a ton of things to do before we left, (shop for an appropriately colored outfit, wash the dog for the dog sitter, clean the house and I still had work that day).

I left work about 3pm, grabbed Brandon and headed to the mall.  Success!!  I found clothes that fit, were cute and on clearance – a triple bonus!!  We jammed home, I changed into my cleaning clothes, short shorts and a nasty, fabric boogered tank that saw it’s best days long ago.  I started dinner and began cleaning.  It was HOT and windy that day, getting hotter as the day wore on.  The dog loved his bath that day, it was a refreshing change from the weather.

It was getting along into the evening, dark because of the time change the week before.  I was in the bedroom and Barry calls for me to get the binoculars.  I was grumbling a little that he couldn’t come in and get them himself, we were about equal distance to them. But I grabbed them and headed outside to see what was going on.  Barry was focusing on an orange light coming from across the hills, it was about 1/2 mile as the crow flies.  He tells me to call 911 quick, it’s a fire.  Oh crap!  It’s dry, hot and windy!  Perfect conditions for a firestorm.  SERIOUSLY!?!  You have got to be kidding?!?!

A few minutes later I get a panicked call from my daughter, she was at dinner at the Santa Barbara Harbor.  “Mom, there’s a fire! I’m coming home!”.  I wouldn’t let her come back to the house, I’m glad she listened for a change.  Living back in the foothills we knew it was a dangerous situation and I didn’t want her anywhere near the narrow, congested roads with panicked residents trying to get home and grab their “stuff’ and pets, people trying to evacuate their horses, all the idiots who just went up to “look”.  I suppose there were fire trucks and police somewhere in the mix but we never saw them.

So I’m all about closing circles and I’m fascinated when life moves in a cyclical fashion.  I realized last week that the TeaFire anniversary was going to fall on a Thursday this year.  I realized last night that we have tickets to a football game this Saturday.  I wonder if there a sub conscience meaning to all this or it’s just life AND football season coming together. Either way it’s pretty wild.

It’s crazy how life takes all these twists and turns and somehow they still turn out ok.  I thank God for our safety that night, so much could have gone wrong.  Looking back the fire isn’t a sad event, it’s a time to give thanks and remember the blessing we have.  Is it a coincidence that this happened right before Thanksgiving?  I think not.


Extreme Fat Loss Round 2

I completed 10 days of XFLD with pretty good adherence although I was a little heavy on the nut butter. I lost a grand total of TWO POUNDS.

I’ve decided to jump ship and return to my regularly scheduled programming, I didn’t arrive at this decision lightly and had a fabulous epiphany in the process.

Why am I doing ALL of this? What’s the point of working out and eating right? For me this is a multi-faceted answer, especially since I have so little “weight” left to loose.

Quality of life is the first thing I think of. I’ll admit it, at this point in my life first and foremost, I want to look good & I want to feel good both mentally and physically. I want to be healthy and happy and all that stuff. Working out gives me peace of mind and calms me down. Eating more healthy than not healthy gives me energy and vitality.

I first have to ask myself WHY I was doing such and extreme diet with, at best 7 to 8 pounds to lose, and those pounds are an “experiment” to me, to see if I can get a 6 pack for a second. I have no great answer except to see if I could. Then I have to ask myself that that was the best decision I could make. The resounding answer for where I am right now is NO!

These past 10 days my workouts have suffered, I’m holding back since I know I don’t have a “day off”. 10 days in a row of pretty hardcore workouts have caused a chronic pain in my SI joint/sacrum (used to date a chiropractor lol).

The diet is wrecking havoc with me emotionally, especially while PMS’ing (my poor, poor family). I have enormous willpower…until I don’t and I’m about a day away from a major binge. I can’t sleep beyond 6 hours and that is SO not me, I’m an 8-9 hour a nighter. I have ZERO sex drive and I do mean NONE.

So I’m bailing and while I feel a little bit bad for not finishing I’m totally OK knowing I made the best decision for my body, soul, health, mind and marriage. One of the benefits of trying and failing so many times in the past if that I really understand my body and it’s triggers and this has set me up for a monster trigger.

Extreme Fat Loss Round 1of 5

xtreme-fat-loss-dietLawdy, lawdy what has gotten into me???  Extreme Fat Loss, REALLY?!?!?!

This really is an EXTREME program.  Five rounds of five days.  Each day has a different approach.  A Fast Day, Shake Only Day, Cheat Day, Protein Only and Moderate Carb (5 days – see!)  The Cheat Day – well that’s pretty easy where the Fast Day flat our sucks, at least I think it will but I’m only a few hours into it.

The workouts are pretty tough too, at least the quantity is.  Each day has a set of workouts designed for the type of food day it is.  There is a “main” workout then optional targeted workouts – yes twice a day for 25 days.

What’s the point you ask? Well I’m trying to get super lean before my 44th birthday in April.  It will take extreme measures to see a 6 pack.  This lofty of a goal requires some hard work on my end and this seemed the easiest since it’s the shortest.

My plan is to follow the diet exactly but instead of the XFLD workouts i’m continuing with the Turbulence Training workouts using the “Depletion” series.  Craig designed these workouts to work specifically with XFLD and I don’t have to workout twice a day which would never happen.  I’ve had XFLD since early 2011 and only discovered the TT workouts to go with it.  Craig is adamant about taking a break every 3 days, I kike his style.  I was scared off of XFLD mostly due to not being able to commit to the workouts.

I only have 10 pounds to lose scale wise but I don’t know what it will take to see “abs”.

Anyway here I go….

Day 1 – Cheat Day (easy).  I pretty much ate what I wanted with no alcohol.  We went to The Best Little Roadhouse and I filled up on the yeast rolls and baked sweet potato – YUM!  I had spent the 2 days prior to my official start date re-feeding as well.

TT Depletion Workout A done and done well

Day 2 – FAST Day – So my only food for the day is BCAA Matrix from BioTrust. Fifty Five of them, yep that’s how many I need to take to avoid muscle loss.  GO ME!!

Fast day was successful on my part in that I didn’t eat anything from dinner on Sunday night through 6:30 am on Tuesday morning.  I can honestly say it’s the longest I’ve ever been without food unless you count a couple of bad breakups but I think they involved wine so they don’t really count.  I did cheat a little and went to bed 2 hours early.

TT Depletion Workout B included optional intervals using the spinning bike

Day 3 – Shake Day – Today I get to drink protein shakes all day LONG.  Which is a major improvement over eating nothing like I did yesterday.  Why can’t my shakes taste like Blenders in the Grass or Jamba Juice??  I guess if I used sherbert I’d get it a little closer – humph!!

6:30 am – 1/2 orange, 1/2 cup coconut milk and 1 scoop of Low Carb protein powder

10:00 am – 3 strawberries, a banana, 1 scoop Low Carb protein powder and 3/4 cup of coconut milk with 1 table spoon of unsweetened coconut flakes

2:00 pm – Low Carb protein powder, coconut milk & frozen berries

6:00 pm – Low Carb Protein powder, strawberries, cottage cheese & coconut milk with a table spoon of PB on the side

8:30 pm – Low Carb protein powder, peaches, pineapple, cottage cheese, coconut milk & a table spoon of PB on the side

So I ate too many calories for the day and not in the right combo, I kind of suck at food combining.  Bonus though – I realized I can make my shakes thick and eat them with a spoon, this way I feel like I’m “eating” and I don’t splash shake all over my face when it inevitably “splops” on me.

TT Depletion Workout C.  I had an increase in weights today – yay!! But dang am I SORE, SORE, SORE!!!

Day 4 – Moderate Carb Day.  I’m SO sore.  I can’t recall DOMS like this in the past that just went on and on.  That being said I took this morning off from working out.  Hoping I can pull a quick one tonight after I get dinner started.

11:00 am – 5.5 oz ground beef (taco flavored) over steamed sweet potato chunks, 1 cup of roasted cauliflower/broccoli mix

2:20 pm – 5.5 oz ground beef (taco flavored) over steamed sweet potato chunks, 1 cup of roasted cauliflower/broccoli mix

5:00 pm – 1 table spoon PB

7:00 pm – Chicken breast, brussel sprouts, salsa, avocado

8:30 pm – 1.5 tablespoon PB

I ate too many calories AGAIN today so I’ll have to get a handle on that.

TT Depletion Workout D with 15 minutes on the spin bike

Day 5 – Protein Only.  Easy Peasy day, I LOVE meat.  Eating today has been simple and effortless, using mostly leftover protein from the prior days.

11:00 am – Cottage cheese and hard boiled egg

1:30 pm – chicken breast & brussel sprouts

3:00 pm – 2 hardboiled eggs

Workout was two 4 minute finishers from TT for a total of 8 minutes.  It was all bodyweight stuff, I am really too sore to lift a weight today.  I “may” do the optional HIIT tonight.

Time to vote for the Turbulence Training Contest

Wow – there is a HUGE group of women over 40…but I guess that’s not a surprise.  The stories are all inspiring.  My Favorite is Denise.  I’ve gotten to know her a little on the BioTrust forum and she is a genuinely nice person who has really, really transformed herself.  It’s a little tough competing against people you  like lol.  Reminds me a little of running in beauty pageants and voting for Miss Congeniality (I never won THAT prize, wonder why??).

Anyway, here’s the link to vote and you can only vote once so make sure before pressing the button.  Vote Now.

Fun in the snow!!

Thoughts and re-cap of the past 12 weeks

This is going to be a bit of a re-cap as I decompress from the 12 week contest as such it’s going to be a work in progress as different things hit me or as questions are asked.  Check back over the next few days to see the progress 😉

First things first – I had a wonderful, although rather fast photo shoot, on 12/7 at my property.  I spent the morning buffing and shaving, showering then running to get my hair and makeup done – in the snow and ice.  A storm had come in the day prior and dumped enough of the white stuff to make me a nervous Nelly.  After flipping the truck this past January on ice I’ve a new found respect for the weather and even more Winter Wussiness (It’s gonna be a LONG winter if Barry has to drive me to work everyday).

Everything went great “in town”.  We made it back with time to spare.  We had made arrangements with the photographer, Mandy, to use our data card for the pics so I could have them immediately.  Well our cards didn’t match, back to town her husband went to pick up another card (an hour delay – sigh).  It’s coming up at about 3:30 at this point and daylight was fading fast.  We snapped the pics inside the cabin rather fast then headed outside to take some snow pics near the creek.  Fun but FREEZING as it wasn’t even 20 degrees outside.

The past 12 weeks (13 now lol) went really, really fast as I lok back.  Funny thing is my head was just so “in the game” that it didn’t seem hard.  I suppose my smily would disagree with that ;-).   I had such a solid plan a d a clear call of action that there were no real slip ups.  I had treats and way too much peanut butter but they were generally planned.  I

WINNER – I’m a winner

Over Thanksgiving weekend I received notification that I was chosen as the BioTrust Nutrition Week 9 10 pound down challenge winner.  I WON!!!  Even though my goal was winning this portion of the contest kind of went unheeded by me.  I did submit my pics and stats but it wasn’t really on my radar.  Cray huh?!?!

What sweet validation that everything I’ve been doing has been working.

Thanks BioTrust!!! And Tim  HOW COOL IS THIS???  Bam, $1000 right before Christmas.

Week 12 and I am done

Time just keeps flying.  It’s hard to believe that it’s been 12 weeks, an extremely successful 12 weeks at that.

I lost a total of 28 pounds and37.5 inches between 9/16/13 and 12/7/13, a full 12 weeks.

Here’s the essay I submitted to the Turbulence Training contest.

I entered the 18th TT Contest with two goals 1) FINSIH and 2) WIN. I have “entered” this contest so many times in the past only to have petered out about 4 weeks in. Each time that I didn’t finish was yet another blow to my self-esteem. Thoughts like “you’re lazy”, “you’re weak” moved onto “there’ll be another contest that I can enter, I don’t have to finish this one”, to eventually “well I can’t outgrow my shoes…” as I continued to outgrow everything else. Every time I quit I just reinforced to myself that I was a failure and proceeded to put even on more weight.

I’ve owned TT since 2005, so I am familiar enough with the program but trying to keep the manual timing of the super sets and rest periods was too much “work”. Im not vey tech savvy and setting my tabata timer took too much time and effort. Then TT 2.0 came out on VIDEO and I was saved. Simply having a LOUD timer set to the specific workout was amazing but being able to gauge my timing by following the trainers in the videos AND being DONE in 30 minutes really took me to the next level. The workouts were tough, fast paced and motivating. There was cursing, there were light headed moments and there was more sweat than I can ever recall sweating but there were also real results, really fast and really sustainable. Seriously it was an hour and a half out of my life each week. And there was NO cardio (I really, really hate cardio). Anyone want to buy a Spinner bike? Cheap?

I began this Transformation with my goals set and intentions made on how I was going to get there and NOTHING was going to stop me from finishing this challenge, including the sudden death of my best friend in week 7 at age 41. Her death has only increased my motivation to continue this lifestyle and preserve my own health.

Diet: Before 9/16/13 I was eating out daily, usually at the local Mexican joint, would drink 2-3 sodas and would inhale a trick or treat size bag of peanut butter cups each day, then make a great dinner and eat with my family. My portions were out of control as was my sugar consumption. I had no problem cooking breakfast and lunch for my family then racing out the door to go eat fast food. I didnt bother to take the time to care for ME.

After 9/16/13 – Initially eating was a struggle in that I wouldn’t eat enough plus I actually had to PLAN my meals, DAILY. I started following a 16/8 intermittent fasting (IF) schedule, that didnt work well for me. I spent about 5 weeks tweaking my eating plan, moving calories up and down, trying different IF schedules to see what worked best and I found that eating real “whole” food, utilizing a 24 hour fast
once or twice a week and the Free Day concept worked best for me. I keep BioTrust protein powder and cookies on hand at work for days I dont plan so well and for emergencies. I work out in a fasted state and broke my fast around 11:30 am. I don’t eat wheat or processed sugar, except for free day. I’m having a blast playing with food now, trying food I would have never considered in the past (turnips anyone?) . It was pointed out to me that I don’t even THINK about Taco Bell anymore (I ate there 2-3 times a day for at least 10 years), this is a HUGE accomplishment for me. In a nutshell I eat real food and not too much. I drank no calories and allowed a treat here and there.

Programs Followed
TT 2.0 Beginner 1 week , TT 2.0 Intermediate – 4 weeks, TT 2.0 2K3 3 weeks, TT 2.0 BDHC 4 weeks

I did the TT programs as written for 12 weeks with one day of finishers added each week for approx. 10- 12 minutes and one day of light yoga or stretching. I work out at my house with a bench, adjustable dumbbells, my ball, TRX and ValSlides. Other than going to work I didnt do the recommended 30 minutes activity on the other 2 days.

This is probably an unpopular thing to say but when I entered this contest I entered to win. All my goals and all of my intentions have kept me moving in that direction. I made a decision and I followed through with it. When I wanted to cheat I remembered that I wanted to win much more. I talk like I’m a winner, I have interacted with my friends and social/ media peeps as a winner, etc .In the past I never really believed in the power of words and beliefs…until now!! Winning is so much more than the money, that’s nice but will be gone pretty fast. Winning is knowing I’ve kept my self promises, it’s knowing I finally put myself first for a change, making me a better wife, mom and grandma. Winning is validation that I can finally trust myself to finish what I started and to believe that I really can do anything. If I could impart any wisdom it would be to not scoff at those that say to set a goal, write your intentions, make a plan and then have a back up plan and above all BELIEVE in YOURSELF. I used to see this quote all the time and thought it was bunk but maybe there is something to it. If you can believe it, the BODY can achieve it. (The actual quote says mind not body, this just fits better).

I have accomplished SO much in these last 12 weeks but the best thing overall is when I walk past my husband (in various forms of clothing…or not), I can hear him say “wow” under his breath. Weve been married for 16 years and he saying WOW! (giggle, snort, cough).


Total Weight Lost 28 pounds Total Inches Lost 37.5 overall